I've had it!

I've had it with stupid, inconsiderate neighbours. And they seem to be everywhere. For my case, it is probably considered mild but still, there is a limit to my tolerance. Somehow, some people(if they can be considered humans at all), like to assume that they are the ONLY people in the block who has the right to hang out their clothes to dry. So, they like to hang out their wet and DRIPPING clothes, which means that the rest of us living in the units below haf no choice but to not put out our clothes. ARGH!!! What is wrong with pple nowadays man? And it's not the first time this is happening i can tell you... Something drastic may happen if these pple dun change their attitude...

My fren's case of crazy neighbour is much worse. His neighbour simply does his best to irritate him to the utmost for no apparent reason. He will blast his stereo and play Indian music(cos he thinks that most pple dun like Indian music. Racist man.), and then move his family to the nx unit which is also theirs so he wun haf to listen to it himself. Insanity man... such pple are reeally insufferable... I would like to personally wring the necks... haha, i sound evil. Ok lah, i'm not... Seriously, pple shld try to think for others once in a while. Do what the bible says, "Do unto others as you want others to do unto you." And the world will be a nicer place. Ha.

Less news... gd news?

Pple haf started to slack cos i'm not getting as many updates on their blogs as i used to. I'm also not blogging as much as i used to... heh... feels a little let down when i click on blogs but dun see anything new. Haha... i shld speak for myself first huh...

Anyway, the rehearsal for POS today was pretty good. Viewed the other schools and so had an idea of what they r doing. But i thinl some schools are still holding back, not showing their full force. Actually i dunno if we are either. haha... hope no one frm other schools is reading this... I feel that it's abit unfair that they are showing so little and we so much. not that they can copy what we r doing cos it took lotsa prac b4 we even reached this stage of stunts. i'm not satisfied with my own preformance today cos i feel that i cld haf done much better and given more energy. Nvm, shall not dwell upon it...

ok, im feeling sleepy. gtg go dormir liao... A bientot!

Stuck in a rut

A pretty tiring and long week has passed. What haf i been doing? More or less the same thing every day, which is wake up, haf breakfast, travel to Boon Lay, practise for POS, then come home and sleep. eh, sian rite? Dun be mistaken here... i love POS and cheerleading. It's been a great experience so far, esp getting to noe so many on fire for God pple in my school. But spiritually I ain't getting anywhere, which is why it's tiring for me. So easy to get fired up but there's no constant source to keep that fire burning. Easy come, easy go... Y oh y? Bro Simon talked to me today and he wanted me to stop discipling to concentrate on my own walk. I totally do not blame him or anything. Just disappointed that it has to come to this. But i can't blame no one but myself. i shouldn't even be blogging at this hr... i should be reading the bible and praying... ok, i'm going. dun hurry me ok... gotta to the right thing at the right time, else i'm sinnning... later folks...

Rolling God times!

I've just had an amazing time with God, feeling His wonderful presence in my room and hearing Him speak words of encouragement to me. Not that this is the first time, but it always feels so good to be loved by Him. To be taken into His arms and told that everything's alright, that He still loves me. Thank You. These are the best words i can use to express my gratitude. It's a great time of refreshing & i wanna be refreshed and renewed like this everyday. I know it's not gonna be easy but no one ever said that life is gonna be a bed of roses. Far from it in fact. The devil will attack as soon as you take one step closer. Satan wants to keep you and I away cos he knows that the power of God within us will grow stronger when we get closer to the Almighty. "But fear not," says the Lord, "For I am with you always. Even to the end of the age." And everyone says "AMEN!" God, I'm gonna lean on You 100%, to let You lead me thru my life. I will remember the promises that You have given me, Lord. I will always look to You when times are dark, remember the rewards that are gonna come my way.

Discipline. Obedience. I am gonna be a vessel that's used for Your kingdom.

Just feeling plain happy. Contented. Smile on my face.

I am gonna breakthrough! Cos i feel it in my bones. Yay!

I will press on. Persevere. I love You Jesus!

Lethargy

Today's been a slow and boring day for me and how I hate it to be that way. I dunno why, although i've had enuff sleep i still feel tired and keep dozing off. Argh!!! This isn't the way my life is supposed to be... The past week i feel pretty outta sorts. I come home early but i feel tired anyway. What's this, man? Where's the zoe life of God? I haf not been dilligent to seek the face of my Maker either which means the past week of my fasting is wasted. Where's the enthusiasm and excitement about life? What's the meaning and purpose of my existence? Sigh, questions where the answers can only be found in my quiet time. I need a breakthrough, i need strength, i need energy. ok, enough of whining... i shld start doing something. As they say, actions speak louder than words.

Anyway, I've made my choice regarding my streaming. I put Mechanical and Production Engineering as my first choice. Wat do you think? heh... I hope i've made the right choice. Holy Spirit, pls guide me...

Praise God in all things!

Today is a day of disappointments but at the same time, also one of new hopes. I received the results of my school examinations and the Talentime audition within the span of a few hours. I failed my Maths 2 and i wld probably haf to take it nx sem but i hope it wld not affect me taking French level2. My results are in a full range again... just like last sem... just like how i only put in last minute preparation... The law of seedtime and harvest is working here... but still, praise God! Cos i still managed to get 1 A (for Chemistry) and i didn't fail more than 1 subject. Thank You Jesus! =)

Actually, in my heart i already had some idea that i fouled up the Talentime audition. Hello? I can't even remember the lyrics properly... and that is like a basic requirement. Nvm, i will try again nx year and i definitely will be more prepared. Sry to disappoint you Andy... But still, praise God, that i haf the oppurtunity to try out and get a feel of it... Failure is never fatal or final! Next year i can definitely make it!

Right now the biggest headache i haf is regarding choosing of my engineering school in the second year. God, i really need You to show me the way. i've got no idea where i shld go... Take me to the place, where the Spirit of God is! deadline is on 22 May... Someone wanna gif me advice? haha... ok, dun start calling me all at once... i only accept good advice hor... hehe... Time to go look for my answer... Au revoir!

The Blessing of God

Today's cell group meeting was marvelous cos I really feel recharged to increase my faith in God. Tho the msg that Bro Simon shared is not new yet I am still blessed by it. I forgot to share something earlier on... a huge blessing from God... i got the tuition i was hoping i wld get! Hehe... Prasie God!!! That means that i dun nid to worry bout how am i gonna keep myself alive for the nx 2 mths. It's really a blessing from God cos I was hesitating whether i shld participate for POS or work in SIAEC to earn money. Thank God i had choosen to honour Him first and now i see the reward of my obedience. Thank You, Jesus! =) I had not seen it from this point of view actually, but Bro Simon reminded me it is because of my choice to seek God first that i am blessed. yea!

With regards to yesterday's audition, I choose to keep a positive attitude and will not confess negatively. I fumbled a little yea, but that's only the facts, cos the truth is that God has given me a talent and a promise that i will sing to thousands one day so i am a winner no matter wat. Aiya, tmr got BS but i haven reveised yet or memorised the verses... betta go do so liao... i dun wanna b scolded by Bro Simon tmr... haha...

Parade of Schools!

The past 2 weeks or so I've been very much commuting between Hougang and Jurong, due to the numerous practices we haf (5 days a week) for the POS event of Emerge, the church's youth conference held in June. This is the first time I'm participating in the Parade of Schools(POS) tho it's the 3rd time I'm gonna attend the conference. Truthfully speaking, I had my doubts initially about joining this event but after coming for the second practice I was hooked! hehe... it's very, very fun to do the stunts. However, it's not without a price to pay. I've taken quite a few tumbles and even hurt my tailbone (ouch!). But thank God that recovery is well under way... I love the dancing part as well and since i'm not one of the primary flyers I gotta dance quite a bit to 'smoke' the audience. Sigh... only thing is that too much dancing has also caused me pain. Right now my right leg is suffering from aching and soreness cos we keep having to bend our legs and twist during the dance. Hopefully i'll recover by this week so i can really do all my stunts and dance properly. God is my Healer! Faith, not fear! Amen! Here, i wld also like to take this oppurtunity to say that i love the NTU ministry pple. hehe... they're a great bunch who haf sacrificed a lot just to make this POS as successful as possible. I salute you all! and i'm glad to haf made a few gd frens thru this event like Sze Yin (anointed woman sia.. dun play play...), Huifen(our star flyer) and Rick(the best back spotter i noe). Thanks for believing in me guys! Let's work hard together and bring revival to NTU!!! Yay!

The one other event I'm taking part in for Emerge is the Talentime. I've wanted to join since the first time but lack the courage and confidence. This year i thot that i shld just go ahead since it's good experience anyway. Tmr's my first audition actually. hehe... I'm feeling a bit nervous esp i haven't really been practising and i never really tried performing this song in front of an audience. Argh! God gimme confidence! Relax... Take a deep breath... ok, i shld do fine, esp since Andy has taken so much pain to help me get the minus one track. For all of you who have been encouraging and supporting me, a big thank you! =) I will do my best tmr and leave the rest to God. No worries. I can do it! ok then, i gotta go slp soon... stay tuned to this page for gd news pple... I'm keeping my fingers crossed too... haha... Love ya all!

Good friends

It's amazing how our friends are willing to help us when we haf a need. I was getting pretty desperate bout how to get a minus one track of Whitney Houston's "The Greatest Love of All". I thot i betta get some help from someone who's more pro at this sorta stuff (most things that gotta do with the comp you seriously dun wanna ask me). Thx a million Andy! For helping me get the track and sending it to me... heh... sry it had to cost you much sleep and maeb even one day's leave... hope you dun get into trouble cos of this... Thx again! To all our you out there who have such frens, muz learn to appreciate them and treasure them well hor... True friends are priceless.

It's a happy, happy day!

I wanna gif tribute to Bernard here, my wonderful big bro who specially celebrated my birthday for mi. I got a cake, a present, a card, chocolates, flowers(cos i sorta insisted... being a bully here...) and a dinner as well... Where does one find such a nice 'gor gor'? hehe... AND the best part of tonite is that i got to DRIVE... yay! We went to Sentosa juz to cut cake (actually wanted to take nice pics lah but no nice place leh) and he allowed me to drive ard in his nice blue Jazz cos not so many cars... heh... sooooo happy!!! In case some of you are wondering, I'm not an illegal driver ok... I got my license bout over a month ago. Thx again gor! =)

Back to the more serious stuff i was gonna talk about last nite b4 i got too sleepy... The past few nights that Pst Phil preached really put something in my heart. I feel a hunger get closer to God, to change my lifestyle, and make it no longer I. But of cos it takes much more than just words to change things, actions are needed to back it up too. Discipline... to be a soldier... to be a leader... change me! i dun wanna be the same, God! Haf not been the faithful or accountable lately... so yea, from this day on i will crucify my flesh. Galatians 2:20 "I have been crucified with Christ; it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me; and the life which i now live in the flesh i live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself for me." Gambate!!! Wait for me Jesus!

It's been a while

Firstly, for those of you who haf been faithfully following my life story, a million apologies for the lack of entries... I've been really busy the past week, wat with all the POS cheerleading practice, chalet, church conference and concert... Haha, busy busy bee!

I shall juz attempt to gif a brief summary of my week cos wanna share something more serious. heh... Monday i had a most delightful class chalet wif B29... Thx guys (and girl)! They lured me away and gave me a surprise birthday celebration which was so sweet... haha, too bad i wasn't touched enuff to cry... Sry to disappoint some! one interesting part to note wld b that i got ambushed wif cake... the first time ever... hehe...Then Tue to Thur had a wonderful conference wif Pst Phil Pringle. Great man of God! woot! I'm really blessed by the msgs he shared... fri nite then went to attend TJC's choir concert which was held at ACS(Barker). The choir was alrite but the second half really cld haf been betta. The alumni was gd as expected (we're not known as alumni for nothing )... hehe... sad that i din sing tho... miss my choir days... Ms tham still looks as sharp as ever...

Ok, I'm officially 20 years of age liao since 13th May 2005.. heh heh... Happy birthday to mi! Had a pretty simple birthday since i'm packed wif activities. Had POS prac and the NTU pple sang me a birthday song and prayed for mi... Haha, i dunno how Sis Charlotte did it but she managed to chk my birthday tho i refused to say. Thx guys! Then went to haf a simple dinner wif Andy at newton's circus before heading for ACS. That was my birthday basically... haha, nothing fantastic but really appreciate everyone who remembered... sniff sniff... erm, i think i'll share the serious stuff tmr. i got drooping eyelids liao... cya!

Mixed feelings...

Ok, i missed out yesterday cos there was a major prob with my comp... It was firstly lagging like nobody's business and then later there was zilch internet connection... i mean, how wrong could things go? ok, so i didn't get to touch the comp at all yest... Nvm, since my bro has since fixed the internet porblem and has reformatted the comp so it runs slightly betta... Then horrors of horrors, he told me a piece of news that devastated me. He could not transfer some of my photos back to the comp frm the CD-RW... Argh!! i was hopping mad of cos, tho i've heard a million times that i've lost the right to be offended... i only hope now that i can salvage the situation... Some of these pix r priceless... How on earth am i gonna get Bro Zhisen to rehold his wedding so i cld take the photos again?? sigh...

On a happier note, i got a good testimony to share. hehe... my mum actually came for service with me yest. i wld like to take this oppurtunity to correct Andy cos it's actually the 3rd time that my mum has been to church... first 2 to my bro's one... still i feel that's it's a breakthru esp since i saw that she lifted her hands during worship. God! Revival! Bring revival to my family!!! yea! so yest was a pretty gd day overall... =)

Well, since today is Mother's Day, my family excluding my dad went to celebrate. It was a double celebration cos my birthday's near so thot that we might as well do a 2-in-1. We went to Pariss at Takashimaya (formerly known as Gengkhis Khan) to haf dinner since my bros had not gone before. I had a bad experience the first time i was there cos i overate and ended up puking. Yucks. ok, today i was wise enuff not to repeat the same mistake... no worries pple... but i think that the food was not worth the amount of money we paid... $55 per person after GST and service charge to me is pretty exhorbitant. Esp since the attitude of one of the chefs there was terrible. He spoke to me like i'm some stupid kid who dunno how to order the food. C'mon, it's only my second time there... i just relied nicely and went back to my seat... oh well, some pple are juz like that i guess. Anyway, we all agreed that we won't be returning anytime soon... haha... too bad for them... After dinner we went to get some of my facial products then headed home liao... Mummy was a bit upset with us after that tho, cos we were all in slacking mode and refused to budge from her bed to do the chores... Sorry we made you angry mummy... =( anyway, i did my part liao lah... So this is my account of today and actually i got lotsa to write but am feeling rather beat liao and i gotta wake up at 7am tmr... nuts, i betta hit the sack soon... going to wilfully seek God... hehe... update again tmr!

a talk wif my daddy...and some thots

Recently many thing have been happening in my family and i was pretty upset about it. I was initially quite angry with my dad and i just felt like 'why is he still like that at this age?' But then as time goes by God heals the hurt and pain and i came to forgive him in my heart. i realised that i've been blaming my dad for a lot of things since i was young, like 'why are my frens rich and i'm not?' and so on... but then i failed to recognise that he actually puts in a lot of effort to keep this family going. A lot of 'behind the scenes' action we dun see are actually the toughest. The many times our parents cried in the secrecy of their bedrooms for fear that we would see those heart-wrenching tears. God, truely i thank You so much for my mumy and daddy. Despite all the failures and shortcomings cos they're only human, they're given me so much of their lives and their love. I love ya mummy and daddy... hehe so mushy... Just wanna add that i had a long talk with my dad and i feel we're closer lah... happy, shalalala...

One great piece of news i haf is that my dad said ok to me learning the piano... whohoohoo... hehehe... you can't imagine how many i am... i just feel that it's gonna be sooooooo great... who noes, maeb i'll start wrting some p&w songs or even jazz? muahaha... watch out world! ok lah, i gotta go pray and sleep soon... last thing i wanna say is that thanks Bro Simon, for ur constant encouragement and chastisement... my WILL will b strong! Amen! =)

everyone's got a first time...

Oh well, waddya noe? I've started my very own blog too! I've recently been reading lotsa blogs so i thot y not get my own. It's a pretty good way to keep pple updated and keep myself sane.Y keep myself sane? I guess I could vent out all my frustrations and helplessness here when i need to. It's also a good way to keep up my language and writing skills. Wateva... Y do I need to give reasons for getting a blog?? Just blog lah...