I was right. I am missing them loads. Haha. My dearest Jules and Sharon, hope you guys are still holding out well. I noe you r super busy with all the studying, working, jamming and forecasting. God is your strength!
Well, it's been 2 weeks since I've gone over. The peeps r pretty ok. I still dunno them that well, and still feeling a lil lost. Hmmm, i tink i shld prolly tk on a more active role to get to noe them betta. Kinda taking a backseat and waiting for ppl to warm up to me automatically which is prolly a silly thing to do. "If you want frens, you gotta first be friendly yourself."
Quite a lot has happened in the last 4 weeks. I went for the BV auditions and nope, i din make the cut. I am disappointed. But i dun wanna sulk or blame anyone or give up on my dreams. I wanna work harder, twice as hard if i haf to. God, i pray you will turn everything ard, the hurts, the envy and emptiness, turn them all into my motivation, so that i can run faster and furthur for You. I am learning slowly but surely to let it go. To put it down and look at it positively. God is a good God.
Soon i will b water baptized. Woot! But somehow i am not so excited. I have waited for so long... i tink i've forgotten why i wanted to in the first place. Renew my passion for You everyday Jesus, renew my vision. I love You.
